Blue

I've made a house in myself,

It's so big that it's suffocating

Because it's not empty, but full of it

The grief that I have collected

I'm trying to make room 

Maybe ink it onto paper with pen

But its slippery and overflows

Painting all and my hands in vain

And I look around myself

Sitting in that poodle of blood

But its all blue and all mine

So I just cry and try to tuck

I soak it in my blanket

And wear it all around me

Its so warm but so so cold

I breathe but its choking

So heavy I should take it off

But I lay down and shut my eye

Because it's all blue and all mine 

I pray for it all to be fine

Dreaming of when I wake up

It'll be gone and I'll be me

With my nails clean and no glue

Sticking to my bones or skin


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